Not sleeping blows dirty ass. Well, if sleeping was your goal.
In the past couple weeks I've dealt with very large crickets getting in my house and singing til all hours. My neighbor has a rooster with a very, very inacurate internal clock and apparently a bad memory as he likes to cock his doodle about every hour and a half at any given hour. Why is a rooster in a residential area anyway? The nosey news choppers have been flying along the coast. My neighbor is renovating or some noisy shit. It just might be fox mating season because they are surely kickin up their furry heels outside my bedroom windows in the early morning hours. This doesn't even address the noise in my own head, both literally and figuratively.
Suppose it's true that they say you'll sleep when you die. A nap might be nice, though.
3 comments:
hahahah...great to read you again.
Foulla
in the last couple of weekes i've been feeling something creeping up on me. i'm hoping that it's just the change in weather. or everything that's been going on. or just feeling lonely. anything but the dreaded D word. it's funny how, it's been almost 2 years since i went off the meds and now all i can think about is going back on them to avoid something that may not even be happening. is normal on the meds or off the meds? i don't even know any more.
Foulla - Really? You?!?!
Kate - Normal is both. Kudos to you for sensing 'it' and considering taking steps to combat it. Even with a chemical imbalance, you do not lose yourself, you just get mired in everything else so it feels that way. When the meds correct the flow, the 'old you' is back albeit frustrated by what happened with the big D. It is paralyzing to be under all that and not have meds to clear the debris away. For what it's worth, it is easier to keep it at bay and start meds as opposed to allowing it to fully take hold and battle it. Also, the anxiety level of 'impending D' takes a huge toll. Your normal is a blend because it's the same you, just that it's much better with pharmaceutical assistance. I hope things work out with that, I truly do. let me know?
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