Its a miracle!!!!

Mark your calendars kiddies... I was extra nice today. My cousin was fighting with her man and she wanted to go to the bar for a few drinks. At 3 in the afternoon. We used to be close, but we've drifted apart in the past few years having it culminate in a screaming match (complete with death threats) involving police and many other family members ducking for cover. But I won't bore you with that. She called today and I went, as if nothing had happened. Granted, I had reservations, but her pain superseded all that had happened in the past. In the end? No idea... things are currently unresolved, but I tried my best to just simply be there for her. I hope I succeeded.

During this little outing, her man showed up and they went outside for a bit. Next thing I knew, a nice 'boy' came walking over and began talking to me. He said he could see that something was going on and he wanted to make sure everything was alright because I looked so sad. I explained that my sadness had nothing to do with me and everything to do with my cousin (which I thought was quite apparent since my tear stained cousin was the one that left briefly with the crabby boy). Anyway, we talked for a few minutes and I thanked him for his concern. Within 20 minutes he was back, making sure I was 'ok'. We introduced ourselves and just chatted for a bit. I learned that he is the drummer/singer in a local band (I've really been out of the loop) and happens to be doing a show at the same bar on Friday. I kindly told him I had to work the next day and he promptly gave me his Saturday schedule as well. I must be really, really dense. He leaves. He returns. In no way was he 'pawing' at me, but I did notice some lingering touches that I played off as a gentlemanly gesture (ie: a touch on the back as I passed in front of him, etc.). I did notice, though, that he kept looking at me. Eventually, he just looked me square in the eye and said, "My God, you're beautiful!"

Now, I don't say this to toot my own horn - far, far from it. I say this because I'm so used to avoiding and downplaying signals that this guy actually had to be that straightforward for me to realize that he was interested. Part of me wants to go for a bit this weekend, just to see. But I still can't get over my own inability to hone in on these signals when it pertains to me...