* This post not rated, but if it were, something tells me it may end up with language-related restrictions.
So ok, what the fuck?!
I've worked the past three days (weekends at the hospital are rough) and have also been in the throes of some hellacious PMS. I want to either bed you or kill you. If I'd be a Praying Mantis, I could do both... hmmm. Anyway, I've also been in a great deal of pain (non-PMS related) and am apparently just a little bit fucking touchy at the moment.
After sending off two quick emails, I figured I'd check a handful of blogs to see if anything had happened over the last few days. That's when I saw it. A simple sentence that burned my ass so bad that I could feel my chest start to tighten within minutes. Ok, want rules? Here they are. Don't fucking lie to me. Ever. Be a little creative if you must, but never fucking lie. So what happened, you ask? Not much, but it goes a little like this:
Unexpectedly saw something that was truly an innocent little comment. Fun-loving, actually. Only problem is that (and I have to be careful here) this comment that has no real significance (read: not malicious) was preceded by a whole other set of circumstances that now makes it have significance. Ok, think of it this way... imagine we are friends (awful, eh?) and we have a brief conversation regarding mutual friends. Keep in mind this is an example, not a direct representation, just to let you know where the real topic would fit in with the scheme of things. You maintain that you really aren't friends with them anymore and over the next month or so I notice comments being made by said mutual friends referring to you in a much friendlier way indicating current involvement. Ok, fuck it. You tell me you aren't friends, then from what I have been seeing (on several counts), you most definitely are. Let me make one thing sparklingly clear here... this is not about two or more people talking to one another. Nor is it about me liking or disliking someone. It's about one thing and one thing only. What purpose was there to lie about something so simple?! Christ! The only thing that has happened in the end is that now I wonder why it was deemed necessary to lie to begin with? I mean really, what the fuck is that about? Something that was a comment in passing a while back has new significance under the title 'lie'. Why? Why lie about something that didn't 'warrant' a lie? It just makes me look back and wonder why. And if that, then what else? GAHHH! Although I may have a rather unfocused side to me, this LiVEwiRe does have functioning synapses and is far from stupid. A lifetime of real cocksuckers saw to it that I learn to pay attention for the sake of self preservation.
I hate lies. I will drop anyone faster than someone running through hell in gasoline shorts if you lie to me. And that is fast, fucker. If you wonder if this is about you, hey, it might be. But if you ask me directly I will have a canned response and that is most likely going to be "no". Look, I've known me for 35 years now and I know that PMS + Pain = Not a good time to discuss a whole hell of alot. Let it also be known that I've been noticing these things harmlessly accumulating for a while now, this just so happens to be the moment that it got to me.
Forgive me for admitting to having a breaking point that may seem so low, but I do not tolerate lying. I'll take this and tuck it away and purposely avoid any confrontation on the matter. If you ask, no matter who you are, you will get a response of denial... it's not you. Just don't fucking do it again.
* This rant is more in response to facing dishonesty, not the actual matter at hand. Now fuck off.
17 comments:
PMS is a bitch, aint it? If it could be considered a punishment, I'd wish it upon all the men in my life who have pissed me off. Keep blogging, and I'll stay tuned.
Signed -
www.thiswomansmadness.blogspot.com
Judging by the dearth of comments, everyone is staring at the astonishingly effective red font, wracking their brains and thinking, "Aaaaieeee! It's me, I just KNOW it".
That was quite an impressive rant.
My thoughts when I read it was not quite the same as KN, although I am mighty curious to know the details... which of curse is another one of my many flaws.
Rant away. Hell, I may post my very own rant tomorrow....I'm just too tuckered out to do it today...:)
Seems like today just generally sucks for everyone, huh? Least we know we're not alone.
In the spirit of rants, please indulge me as to add my own: people who are not french using (and destroying) the french language.
Mois, for example, means month.
Moi, means me.
Easy as that.
:)
IBW - Welcome! I agree - just once, I'd like a guy to know what it feels like. But if I'd release this plague of PMS on all the men who ever pissed me off, that would be scary... there are lots of them!
Kyknoord - So, did I make you squirm? Even a little? Damn. Must be your shield of purple velvet! =)
Chitty - So, it really wouldn't help if I said "it's not you", would it? =) Would it be better if I told you it was KN? Oh wait, he's not still listening, is he?
Stacy - Rants are good for the soul. Purges those nastly little thoughts you get when no one else is around. And if someone would have been around, I guarantee they would have fled 1/3 of the way into it. You feel better too!
Luke - It is exactly as you said - they consider you too stupid to make the connections! That's what makes it so insulting (not the actual content). Worst part is, I'm sure they don't know it's them. I like the idea of a duel... better start learning to aim at dangly things! Heehee...
Greg - You know what? Even the midst of ranting I DID consider that. I think I was too pissed to care, but knew it was used incorrectly. As far as the second 's' in asteriSk... right on! That is a pet peeve of mine. Along with pronouncing the 't' in ofTen and the 's' in IllinoiS. When I saw the words bench warrant, I thought you were going to have me arrested for improper use of an asterisk! =)
Jay - I fully support your need for clarification on the issue. As you can see a couple of my peeves above, I say rant as you see fit! =)
I know I didn't lie.‡ Sorry you feel crappy, but thanks for the nice mail despite your mood.
I know how to say 'asterisk' properly, but usually I am lazy and say 'asterix'.
I know it sounds fucking ignorant, but do ya think I care?? Don't make me say ignorant things like "stereofoam" and "nucular".
‡ I don't know what this reference mark is called, but I like it better than asterices.
Its the leave-a-rant comment thread :)
If only I had something to rant about, but once I start I wouldn't be able to stop, I have a very long list...
But I'm in a happy mood today, so I shan't go there, not yet.
There's nothing like a good rant-drama to spice up the day! Have fun with it!
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Woo Hoo! Now that's the kind of thing that inspired the person who designed the poster I used to keep pinned up at my desk.
It said "I have PMS and a gun - any questions?"
I never did get any - questions, that is.
Wasn't so good for customer relations, though :-)
My advice? Eat your chocolate, mainline coffee and keep blogging!
Fern - Hey, I forgot about 'nucular'... that does bug me. I'll feel better soon (hopefully) but in the mean time I think I might look into that reference mark.
Greg - Taunting the French again, are we? =) And you know... perhaps you could do a rant on ranting... might be a fun thing.
Beelze - Uh, yeah, I had a bit of a fit, didn't I? As for the bodies; yep, I might need to take you up on that offer.
Fence - 'Leave-a-Rant'... love it! Sometimes when I get started I can't stop, too. I'd like to see a full Fence-rant someday!
Chicken - Unless they take on a life all their own.
Anonymous - Hi! Tried to view your photo site but only got part way through it; I shall try again later.
Terri - Lol... I was the poster child for that, definitely. Just seems to have hit me out of nowhere this time. Sharing person that I am decided I'd pass on all the warm fuzzies. I think 'I' am the reason we have gun laws here. Good thinking on someones part.
That is one of my (many) pet hates as well. Why do people lie? If you do, or are doing something worth lying about, then why not just admit to it, apolahise if necessary, and get on with life. People lie a lot because they are doing something they know is wrong, or have done. THEN DON'T DO IT! If you are doing something you know is wrong, then stop it, because it is much better to live an honest life and be able to look back on your life later on and think that no matter how much shit there was, you did your best to do right by yourself. And if you lie for some stupid pointless reason then you are an idiot.
Rant over.
Heidi - Once the flood gates of a rant open, you know how hard it is to get them closed again. Add in PMS and running for cover is the best option for all involved. It'll get sorted out in time, I'll see to that. Thanks for your support, hon!
Motor - As usual, I loved your rant. I know I tease you a bit and tell you that you are smart for a 'youngster', but you really are. Smart in general, I should say. But it's more fun to tease you! =) I really appreciate you taking the time to write your views on this. It helps me to realize that I'm not the only one to think that way.
JohnH - You were totally right! Your comment showed up in my email (that's why I knew I saw it) but not on here. Happened to someone else about a week ago, too.
Your comment: Hmmm, maybe you shouldn't read too much into that line of song you mentioned on my post...in your current mood you might actually try to light something up and burn it, or someone. :)
Lol... and you are sooo right on that one! (But those were cool lyrics...)
Thanks livewire, I appreciate the kind words. :)
Motor - Anytime =)
Lady Sappho - Welcome Lady S! I remember your comment over on CLs blog making me laugh! You are right, there are times when lying is bound to happen. And we all do it. Sometimes I even feel it is warranted (you should see Chitty's post on this subject!). Think about it... I'd rather tell 96 year old Aunt Sue that her casserole was wonderful than lie and risk being the cause of her death... there are always exceptions. And you are so right when you said that the ultimate decision lies with you. Well, each of us, respectively. I just detest the people that think they are immune to these things. Then again... that decision lies with them. Thanks for the great comment!
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