Thursday, January 19, 2012

So I stand to let you down, here, alone...

R.I.P. Mister
(originally Starbuck)

~4/27/2009 - 1/19/2012


We surely had a dysfunctional relationship but we loved each other.  I put 'Little Buddy' in with you so you never have to be alone.  I know how you hated to be alone.  I can still remember when you and Little Buddy were the same size.  So small, you were.


I'm just so sorry ~ I couldn't fix you.  I tried and I failed. 


Goodbye my little boy.
~

9 comments:

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry. There are so many things we can't fix, and it's always the things that matter most. I'm sure that pretty little kit had the most wonderful life with you.

Sending you much love, GD xx

LiVEwiRe said...

GD - Thanks dear. It would help if I wasn't being called a 'murderer'... it's tough enough already. *sigh* I miss that little bugger!

brandelion said...

who the hell is calling you a murderer? wtf is wrong with people?!

never mind..don't answer that! hehehe

sorry about your kitty :(

LiVEwiRe said...

Brandelion - Heh, family... who else would have the ill sense to say such a thing? Yep, it was rough. Still upset but coming to terms with it. Thanks, =)

brandelion said...

family...beh!
my kitty has been 'not right' for over a year..someone brought a dog into our house (uninvited) which proceeded to pee on our carpet
ever since...my poor baby has been having massive anxiety issues..she chews off all the fur she can reach and scratches herself into a scabby mess everywhere else
she's lost weight too
and I swear to god...started drinking from the toilet!!
I'm afraid whatever's going on is taking time off of her life :(

LiVEwiRe said...

brandelion - there's a chance that it might. Any chance the vet can start her on kitty prozac? It's usually REALLY cheap. Might help her anxiety. To really get rid of the urine issue, find a product called The Equalizer. No, it is not a hit man. You spray it on lightly and let it dry then use it a few times more if needed, just don't soak the area. It is better than ANY other product out there ~ we used to use it at the vet clinics I worked at. You can get it at a vet's office, or also on Amazon. Could also try Feliway diffusers ~ they are a bit pricey but I believe they have a $ back guarantee. Sorry to hear of this! =(

brandelion said...

thanks! :) I'll hafta look into that stuff...part of the problem with the urine is that I can't use products that have fragrance in them..it's a pain in the ass!

I've thought about asking for some anti anxiety meds for her...(funny cause I refuse to take them myself but I would give them to my cat)
but the vet seems bent on the idea that it's allergies...which after 15 years allergy free..I think seems awfully coincidental..I mean I know it happens..but..she's been a nervous nut job her whole life! ...I have a lot easier time believing she's a basket case hahaha
I think I will ask about some prozac...it HAS to be better than cortisone injections and antibiotics every couple months!!

LiVEwiRe said...

Feliway is a pheromone - so you can't smell it (er, unless you are part feline...) And as far as Equalizer, it's not fragrant stuff really, *mild* cleaner smell as it's basically an enzyme. I haven't used it for a while but I stay away from alot of the 'scented to cover up the fact that it's not removing the smell' stuff so I doubt it was very powerful. Insta-allergies - sure, could be, but with the changes it sounds more like stress/anxiety. Another idea - does the dog have fleas/mange/fungal infection of the skin? If so, she could have a flea allergy dermatitis - one flea bite can send their system into an uproar.

brandelion said...

I'll definitely see about getting those things! I can't usually smell it unless it gets really humid...but I know she can still smell it and it upsets her whether or not that is her 'problem'

and yes fleas are why the vet is saying allergies...she had never had fleas before (even when we got her as a kitten from where she was living in a wood pile) and allofasudden there they were :/

I'm not sure if they came in on that dog or somehow hopped the fence from my mother's cats or what

this has been going on for over a year...I didn't see fleas in the house but if they were on her they had to be here (and when I say they were on her I mean we had to search!! there were VERY FEW!!)

we did frontline on her 3 different times...in addition to getting her cortisone shots and antibiotics...each time it would improve and then come back again (I was also doing some 'natural' methods of flea killing around the house) because 1. flea bombs suck! 2. I have fish and bombing with fish is a pain in the ass! and 3. it was winter and I didn't know what to do with my cat for the 4 or so hours a flea bomb takes to work and clear...

eventually we relented and did a flea bomb...and the cortisone, antibiotics and frontline

still improved but then came back again

finally the vet said we need to do the flea bomb and the frontline on her every 3 weeks for a 3 course run (to be sure to take care of all the flea cycles)

keep in mind I wasn't even seeing any fleas in the house OR on her at this point!!

but the vet said they must be there if she's still having this reaction

so we did the 3 course (every 3 week) bomb/frontline deal...which is NO easy feat in this house!!

a couple weeks after the last round, I saw a flea on her!!

I'm kinda at a loss...I can't keep bombing my house or poisoning my cat! ...at this point I'm kinda hoping her 'allergies' will do the same as mine...I'm allergic to cats..but since I have one around all the time I'm kinda immune to it (not technically immune but I don't feel the allergy symptoms anymore)

of course she's just a little cat with a much shorter life span so I can only hold onto that hope for so long...but I really don't know what more I can do at this point

I mean what is more hazardous to her health...allergies or monthly cortisone injections, frontline overdosing and toxic bug bombings? ~sigh