Isn't the working world fun? I mean really. Think about it - a group of people that actually get paid to annoy one another. Unless, of course, you are on the receiving end; then it's not such a blast.
Over the past two days, I've been on both ends. The mania seems to holding steady at low grade which means that my patience (short supply to begin with) is gossamer thin. I'm just a cranky bitch, what can I say? You know when you get irritated and you say what you want to say to the other person but manage to temper it with humor? Well, I'm forgetting about the humor part and just blurting out exactly what I think. Heh, it is kind of funny to see the look on their faces. Last night I got in an argument with a nurse on the phone and ended up telling her that I didnt care what she did or didn't feel like doing, this is the correct procedure. She protested (my guess, she was stamping her feet, too) and 'threatened' to talk to 'someone' about this. I told her that would be great, she should talk to however many people it took for her to feel better and to hear the correct answer repeatedly. I don't think she liked that. Perhaps I would have been smarter to curtail the outbursts until after my review. Meh, oh well.
And I learned that my last lifeline, my night pharmacist, has applied for another job. I really don't know what to think anymore. The environment I was hired into has completely changed, and it's only been three months. If I'd been there longer and these changes occured, it would be much easier to handle. This has been like trying to steady myself on shifting sand after the second week and I just don't feel a connection. I'm thinking I should give it maybe another month or two before I make any serious decisions to leave. I have a tendency to over analyze things and keep making excuses then come to find that years have gone by with me still 'deciding'. I don't really want to do that in this case. Plus, I have my apartment lease to consider. I'm trying to time it all to reduce casualties.
Adding to that, I have to weigh the pros and cons of repairing my car vs getting another one. Not sure I can handle a car payment. Nothing like having your residency, job, and mode of transportation all in need of an overhaul at the same time. Then again, I shouldn't act surprised or feel overwhelmed when everything kind of hits at once. Isn't that the way things usually go?
Oh well, at least my house smells really good now. =)
14 comments:
Oh yes indeedy. When life gives you lemons... try to find place for them next to the pile of manure and the stack of broken bottles.
At Palace Peanut, the shit hits the fan all at once all the damn time, it seems. Like a huge snowball rolling down hill...it just gets bigger...and bigger...and bigger.
But you know something, we always seem to be able to crawl out from underneath all that shit (or snow) and keep on going, don't we?
:)
The work thing sucks. I always become very agitated when my little world changes, and people have been leaving in droves lately where I work, so I think I know how you feel. But giving it another couple of months sounds like a good idea... give yourself some time to settle in before you bail out.
Have to chuckle about the outbursts though - I'd love to be a fly on the wall when that happens. I need a good laugh ;-)
Kyknoord - They took away all my broken bottles - something about me and broken bottles being a dangerous combination...
Stacy - It does tend to happen all at once; just like that snowball. Perhaps I'll just get a snowsuit, wait for it all to hit then get up, spit out the mouthful of snow and dust myself off. =)
Terri - Sounds like you have been experiencing some of the same at work. I get edgy when my 'foundation' gets shaken, too. Yeah, the outbursts are kind of funny; if I hear a little tiny fly on the wall giggling, I'll know it's you!
Isn't it fun being a grownup?
No one tells you that actually it blows when you're a kid. But it does. Sorry you're having a hard time.
Yes, I too am sorry that things are seemingly (or actually) falling apart all around--but I secretly relish your outbursts.
Perhaps because my style when I was in the workplace hell was more exquisitely polite. Much too subtle.
I get vicarious delight at your forthrightness.
Jay - Yeah, I don't recall reading 'being grown up blows' in my handbook when I was younger. I think I resent that now.
Jarvenpa - I still have moments of being polite, but sometimes things just boil over and the outbursts reign! I'll dedicate one just for you. =)
i suppose where ever in the world you live, when disaster(s) befalls, it brings forth similar sentiments afterall. I've discovered that when you're in deep shit, it's best to keep your mouth shut. Opening it will only result in extrememly distatsteful circumstances.
Hmmm... When everything else goes wrong, remember to stop and smell the house...?
You take care. And fix your car problem!
T - Hello again. You know, I do posess the ability to keep my mouth shut... some of the time. In some bizarre circles, I'm known as a patient person. Through the years, I've found that keeping it all in results in ulcers and such, so I do try to find a balance. Unfortunately, there are times I do end up in those 'distasteful circumstances'!
Anne - LOL... you crack me up. But perhaps my house is now an experiment to aromatherapy? So, you think the gas leak (for starters) should be fixed, do ya? =)
They say things happens in 3.
Whatalotoffun - Only problem is that in my life, it's hard to distinguish the weird things from the things that should count as one of the 'threes'...lol. This makes me constantly wary or caught off guard! =)
Sorry to hear about the work carousel. Funny enough, I remember something like that happening at a previous job (when everyone was jumping ship just as I was getting on) so I can empathize. :-(
Hope things get better.
P.S. Arrgh! I keep running into a brick wall trying to comment here. Though more like idiocy on my part. ;-)
Banzai - Funny thing is, there are new people coming in now and I'm the one about to jump ship - only I'm the only one that knows it yet. Well, and you guys. ;) (Commenting lately is a test of sanity! I appreciate your perseverance!)
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