Thursday, March 09, 2006

because I'm...

sometimes the words come at me
so fast that they settle in my heart
and take my breath away
they symbolize all that I want
for one shining moment
they dance and spiral
freeing me of all that ties me down

but then my brain reminds me otherwise
the grim reality that those things
are not meant to be mine settles in
my guilt for even wanting them
overcomes me
I let the feeling go
shrouded in a reflective darkness
I see me for what I really am

broken

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

but then my brain reminds me otherwise

We can't possibly know what fate has in store for us.

I know you bear a certain attachment to your brain, but if it thinks it knows what you will or will not have, it's wrong. Tell your brain to openly accept whatever happens. In that way, it won't turn away something good because it is convinced the good is undeserved or unobtainable.

justrose said...

this speaks to me, as all your posts do. hope you're doing well lw. sorry i haven't been around. xoxox

kyknoord said...

"...reflective darkness..." - kind of says it all, doesn't it?

Terri said...

On the 'bright' side, at least you're in good company.

Stacy The Peanut Queen said...

That's a little too close to home for me.....

It's awesome, though....nice work.

Dr O2 said...

don listen to brain. Let the feeling take you away.

I always open doors to happy thoughts whether from the heart or the brain ;-)