Ah, there. I've switched to text format in case the audio was not your thing. Hell, I don't know if it's MY thing yet, I still have to record it...lol. Figured I'd just slip this part in once the audio portion is complete, but I promised myself I'd be brief. (No really, I mean it...)
My quick trip home was good but much too brief. And it left me filled with alot of confusion, which I figure is somewhat normal. I sort of feel in a way like I don't belong in either place. When I saw the lake, I started to cry. That was like my rock, ya know? I can't tell you how many times I sat there and contemplated, laughed, cried, thought, sat with friends, all of it. I really miss it. Got to see my family and yes, I missed them, too. Leaving was hard emotionally not to mention that I had to pee 5 times on a three hour trip. That was just ridiculous. I'm having a serious talk with my bladder - this is just not acceptable. One should not have to be catheterized for a trip of that length!
Enough for now. I have to pee...
My quick trip home was good but much too brief. And it left me filled with alot of confusion, which I figure is somewhat normal. I sort of feel in a way like I don't belong in either place. When I saw the lake, I started to cry. That was like my rock, ya know? I can't tell you how many times I sat there and contemplated, laughed, cried, thought, sat with friends, all of it. I really miss it. Got to see my family and yes, I missed them, too. Leaving was hard emotionally not to mention that I had to pee 5 times on a three hour trip. That was just ridiculous. I'm having a serious talk with my bladder - this is just not acceptable. One should not have to be catheterized for a trip of that length!
Enough for now. I have to pee...
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Just as I suspected... I sound like the nerd that I am. Just a little more garbled...lol!
Not at all, Livewire. Very cool! I think I'll stick to bagpipes, though. ;) Glad to hear your trip went mostly well. It's always sad when you leave something behind. But that doesn't mean you should still be back there.
I can't hear a thing?
Wow. You come across realy well on audio. I loved it.
Hey, you star. :)
It's always unsettling to start anew, while the going-back-to-some-sort-of-"comfort"-zone sirens are always alluring.
That'll be my cryptic advice for the day.
See I hate the sound of my voice. I sound like a geek on helium. But I have to say it...you have a very sexy voice :)
Jason - It was kind of fun to do not knowing what the outcome would be. I did love that clip you posted! As far as what you said about me going back for the weekend, I am trying to keep that in mind! =)
Bean - And you clicked on the little symbol and everything? Does it even take you to the player? I'd like to say that it's because I'm so 'quiet' but no one would ever believe that! Yeah, yeah that's it, I'm quiet... just turn up the speakers...lol. Sorry Bean, maybe another one...
Chitty - I'm figuring the 'wow' is that you are still stunned by me being as much of a goof in audio as I am in text form. But I'm glad you enjoyed it and think it came across well. Your turn. Ahem. (Remember, pirates have ways of making you talk!)
Anne - Star... riiight! =) Thanks for the 'cryptic advice'; it kind of goes along with what Jason said. I'm keeping it in mind, it's just that transition periods are always difficult.
John - Lol... if you think I have a sexy voice through a cell, into an audio post and out into your speakers, I'd say the clarity is better in person. Am I taunting? Yeah, but I can't help it! =) Lucky (?) for you I have a soft spot for geekiness! =) I'm sure your voice is just fine; we're always harder on ourselves!
I can't wait for the Greatest Hits album.
hey babe,u sure u're not pregnant..i mean,come'on pee..pee..pee.
by the way,loe the sound of u're laugh.
Kyknoord - Greatest Hits!? You are dreamin' there buddy! =) If I started singing you'd all scatter. It happens to the wildlife in the area occasionally if the windows are open. And I don't think spoken word compilations make it to Greatest Hits status; maybe next time. ;)
Sappho - That's me, sweet on the inside, crunchy on the outside... or something like that! =) Funny thing is that my voice always sounds little over the phone (I'm 5'9"!). I've had people call and ask if my 'mommy or daddy was home'. I'm like, yeah, my mom is right here, but I'm 35, will that do? The silence is deafening! =) Either way, I gladly accept the hug! When things calm for you, I'd love to hear you do one, if you'd be so inclined. Glad to give you a smile!
Heidi - Peer pressure! Heidi made me do it! lol... see, told you I'd say that! =) Yeah, it was pretty crazy not knowing what it would really sound like and just having it appear on your blog! I kept thinking, if it sucks, I hope I get to it before anyone else does! I think I'll do one when I'm raging mad... that'll give you either the sarcastic side of me or the insane side of me! =) With another move under your belt, you know how it feels. It's hard because I'm 100% alone here and that isn't what I'm used to. I mean, I like my space and privacy, don't get me wrong, but it's still an adjustment period. Thanks for the hugs!
Foulla - Oy, if I'm pregnant that menas that there has been a serious increase in the gestation period! =) No, I just have what I call 'Pee Days' when that's all I do; not so bad at home, but on the road...ugh. Thanks for the compliment. I laugh alot so you all got off pretty easy with just a little bit! =)
YEAY. . .that was something girl. And U do sound really good ;)
(and considering that somwhoe blogger wasn't allowing me to leave the comment on the stabbyman, but U mentioned it again ;)): Sometimes the normal stuff make me so scare that when no-one is left downstairs, I have to run all the steps to the second floor, thinkign the "stabbyman" can come out at any moment. . .so u see, U are not alone in this ;D cheers.
gonna have to come back for the audio as it is blocked by my work firewall - but i did want to say, i know this feeling too - when i left home, i moved 2000 miles away and everytime i went back, there was one less thing to go back for - i was really lonely, i was in limbo, disconnected - both places felt alien - hell, i'm not even sure i'm over my recent move back to CO, though now at least i have some people here - it does get better, you know, the hard part is the inbetween, like always being on in a car and never in a place - oh yeah, give your bladder hell for me ;)
I'm a pee-er too, I feel your pain.
Tigress - Thanks! It was not very clear so I may try again in the future. At least there are others that can convince themselves that the Stabby-Man is real! =)
Mysfit - Ah, damned firewalls. =) That's exactly what I feel now, a sort of limbo or disconnection. Getting more involved should help and I've only been here a month. This in between thing really sucks, as you've hinted at as well.
Jay - It was awful. Five times and that was me struggling to keep dry! Perhaps it has to do with our astrological sign! =)
I thought it was very good. :)
I for one liked the sound of your voice, it really is sexy. Can't wait to hear some more.
Hi Livewire. Just caught up on your posts. Kept me busy for a while. Loved your audio!! You sound very cool!! I have wanted to do it too, but I have such a South African accent that I would rather spare you all. Keep them coming. Loved the Stabby-man.
Hi, what an adventure--you came out very clear, and not at all nerdy; indeed a sweet and cultivated and ever so slightly self deprecating voice. And a great laugh.
And as for your visit home--yes, change, nostalgia, time...
This is the future, more of these audio posts are definately required. and i know it wont be long before motor and i have a go.
congratulations on talking coherently for so long, it's harder than people think as any radio DJ will tell you.
The Livewire Show? surefire ratings winner i think.
wow you sound almost exactly like my sister in law!!!
I had mentioned something about doing an audio post a couple weeks ago and since then a couple people have been on my ass about it - maybe if I can manage to think of something worth saying I'll do it
it's funny because I actually type pretty much exactly how I speak.... but somehow it seems like it would sound silly speaking the things I write - ya know?
plus I HATE my voice!! hehehe
Ah, I can't get the audio right now. :(
I've noticed an increase in bladder activity from myself as well. I'm not getting old, I'm not getting old ...
Jeff - Thank you! I may do another here and there depending on how much I decide to subject you all to. =)
Latin Lover - Wow, that really put a smile on my face! Happy to hear you enjoyed it and I'm sure there will be another at some point... stay tuned. =)
Buddess - Nice to see you back, I know you were pretty busy! Also glad Stabby-man didn't scare you off! =) Ok, you have to to do an audio post... I love both SA and Nigerian accents so I'd absolutely LOVE to hear you!
Jarvenpa - Ah, the sweet things you say! =) For as grumpy and cynical as I can be, there are always laughs and giggles not too far behind; they just jump out. Still dealing with emotions from the visit home, which I think is normal but it's hard. I hope that you are feeling a little better; again, keep those wonderful memories close to your heart - it's where they belong.
Prisoner - I would love to hear both you and Motor; maybe even going back and forth on the same one! I've always been in awe of DJs; I suspect it's much more difficult than people think. Not sure I'm coherent enough to have The Livewire Show, but I'll keep you posted. Does this mean I'd have at least one listener? lol =)
Kitty - Oh no! You mean there are two of us? =) Hey, you could always make cue cards so you know what to say! Of course you'd probably get distracted if you're anything like me. I mean, I even interrupt myself in audio posts; guess it's like all the stuff I put in parentheses in text posts! I bet we'd like your voice!
Goddess - So, you've been spared the audio ramblings, eh? =) I repeat the same mantra about not getting old. Unfortunately, I keep aging even as I say it!
how cute!
I can't hear anything here from the office PC so will have to listen at home. This reminds me that I owe you an audio clip. Will happen once I get a microphone.
As regards missing friends and family and stuff, I'm feeling rather down about such stuff today. The kids go back to school today and it's my son's last year at school. I wish I was there.
Ok, sorry it took me so long to actually listen to the audio blog, the library computers are not always very friendly when it comes to letting me listen to stuff. I'm really glad you did the post Livewire, you have a lovely voice and it is certainly a very good way of communicating what you are feeling, because obviously its more personal than text. Congratulations on managing to think of something to say, I'd probably ramble on about nothing, but you were pretty coherent, and well, you should definately do more!
Deryke - Lol... cute, that's a new one! =) I will say that I liked yours better!
Nomad - Just as well, saves all your coworkers from my audio post! =) Should a mic happen your way, you know I'd absolutely love a clip. I have a weakness for certain accents. =) I'm not sure how you handle being away so well. I'm sure they know you'd perfer to be there with them, especially now, but I'm also sure you've helped them to understand why you aren't in the best terms possible. I wish you could be there, too.
Motor - Thanks for the nice words on the post! I almost always have something to say; whether it makes sense or not is an entirely different matter. =) I'd love to hear you do one; you are very entertaining in text format so an audio would be great.
My MP3 player was so impressed that it decided to stick on one spot, turning you into somewhat of a remix. Quite groovy actually - all it needs are a few beats and........
I have to say that was very brave - I take my (virtual) hat off to you. I'd never post my voice on my blog as I hate the sound of it when it's recorded. The voice in my head always sounds far better ;o)
Carpy - The Livewire Remix, eh? Oh geez... well, that may not be too far off - I do tend to get stuck on one spot often! I have a feeling that your recorded voice is just splendid. Just a hunch. Although if you like the one in your head better, I won't argue. My voice competes with all the others in my head, so I can't tell. =)
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