Here's the general feeling in my mind:
I can feel the sun setting far before it should;
it's warmth fades slightly with each passing moment.
Before it's time, it comes. The darkness.
Provider of solace, shelter, and safe haven for some;
for some, but not for me.
For me, it waits tauntingly.
I fight for air as duplicitous silken tendrils reach,
threatening to rape the last of my strength.
I want to give in, almost give in.
Instead, I fight to see the sun just one more time.
I need to raise my head to survey what is in front of me
so I can mourn what might have been.
To know what was lost.
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I'll be back in a couple of days when I can form real thougths and sentences. Hope everyone is doing well. =)
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The relentless march of the Earth into darkness.... Each day chips away just a little more light, a little more life.
Let the darkness come! Numbly if necessary. Then light one small light that brings you happiness. A candle. Christmas lights. A fire in the fireplace. Even a favorite movie on TV. Let the moment bring a smile. Focus on that tiny, secret joy.
After all, small lights only shine in the dark.
Er... yes. What Jason said.
and you be well, my dear.
"To sleep: perchance to dream: ay, there's the rub;"
I found something for you:
http://www.journeyofhearts.org/jofh/kirstimd/darkness.htm
Feel better, LiVEwIRe.
xxx
Hi L,
Just take it one step at a time and easy as much as possible... I know it’s not that easy, but you know what I mean… I feel you and I hope that you feel better as soon as possible.
Hang in there. It's gonna be okay and one day you gonna be laughing at it all.
Cheers...
Jason - I will do that. I'll search for that one small thing that will bring comfort and happiness. (By the end of this, it might be at the bottom of a bottle, but hey...)
Anne - Care to join me in searching the bottom of the bottle? =)
Transience - I will be, eventually. Just a tough time, that's all. Thank you.
Kyknoord - The rub indeed! Kind of like the lesser of two evils.
Terri - Thank you. I'm somewhere around here:
I remain tenuously balanced
on this small bit of solid footing
Providing me the last vestiges of hope,
Unsure where to turn
or how to find an escape.
No path in sight,
it has decayed into the abyss.
No light to guide my footsteps,
it has been withdrawn.
In complete blackness
I close my eyes
waiting to fall.
On the bright side... it gets better from there, right? I especially liked the part about finding wings... beautiful.
Farzad - You know, you are right. One day I will be laughing at all of this; looking back and saying... 'what a pain in the ass that was'. I just wish that time might come a little sooner.
I wish money was no object so we could all jet over and meet you there. We could be extra eyes and legs for you like one big leggy many-eyed thing.
That came out scary and it was meant to be reassuring ;o)
In fact, I'm going to go and buy my first lottery ticket for about three years to see if things work out. If so then all your air-fares are on me and we shall come and add some spark to the Livewire !
Carpy - First, let me say that the one big leggy many-eyed thing really got me to laugh! No, I mean like, ALOT! =) You are very sweet to even think of cheering anyone up like that. Thank you for choosing me as one of your 'targets'... =) It might be a little cramped here with everyone, but I'd be more than willing to chance it.
Well then I guess I'll be waiting until you get back.
Do big leggy many-eyed things fit into Camrys?
If so, I'm there, babe!
Steve - Feel free to remain half nekkid on Thursdays... =)
Terri - Perhaps my Camry will be like one of those things that looks small on the outside then is large enough to have it's own postal code on the inside. Just wishful thinking...
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