Warning: PC errors and PMS - weird combo
My brain hurts, I've been battling with my computer and my ISP and tech support for a couple of days now and although I have solved one problem, the solving of that problem has apparently spawned a new weirdo problem. I might have to face the fact that this is all the work of PC trolls. Short little bastards. Who knows how long it'll take to remedy the situation. Hopefully, soon.
This has been on my mind today...
I happen to have a friend that means quite alot to me. We've known each other less than a year yet they have managed to secure a place in my heart just by being so uniquely 'them'. This person has literally laughed with me (or is that AT me...), and has been there while I cried from the depths of my soul sharing things no one else knows of. But more than anything, we spend more time being a little silly and truly finding interest in what the other has to say. I consider myself fortunate to have encountered a friend such as this. Sometimes people say 'oh, I wish there were more like you', but really - I don't. This makes me appreciate them more for their singular ways; ways I don't think I could ever take for granted. The other day I found something while online that I wanted to get for them. It's just something small, but I know that it will be appreciated. I'm excited to send it off but part of me feels like it isn't enough; like it doesn't do justice to the appreciation I have for them. I can say that I think I've made it clear as time has gone by; clear that I do value them. To my way of thinking, being able to say that to another person overrides anything in a little package. Yet I still wish I could do more; how do you thank someone for just 'being'?
Then there's this other friend. Now this one I've known for maybe a little over six months. Although in a different way, this friend has also claimed a part of my heart. If you look closely there is a little explorer's flag on top. I still recall what intrigued me about this person initially. Since then I have had the pleasure of getting to know them in so very many ways; ways that perhaps I'd never thought of before. Ever meet someone that is just so 'right'? Just a blend of all the things you admire and a few that no matter how hard you try you just don't 'get'? It all seems to make for such a rich blend that you want to surround yourself with it; to close your eyes and lean back, letting it envelop you. And then what do you do when someone so special begins to feel like they are getting passed by, sort of losing perspective of who they are. For me, that happens all the time - for them it's different. They know how I feel about them and if I could take any of what they are feeling away and replace it with the love and generosity that they've shown to others, perhaps it would make a difference. But I can't, sadly, I don't have the power. The only thing I can do is hope that they believe me when I say how deeply I care and that I wouldn't trade them for anything. They are one of very few people who have actually given me some faith in others and I'll be here for them; letting them down is not an option.
Hmmm... not sure where that all came from. Wasn't planning on writing that. But it's honest so I refuse to remove it. Those are two very special people to me. Special to the point of, if anything ever happened to me I'd want them to know. I can't say what kind of an impact I've made on either of their lives, or anyone else's for that matter, but I can make sure that they know how much a part of me that they've become.
19 comments:
It's a beautiful "tribute" and I'm sure they know how you feel about them.
Now, about that "thank-you" present, don't you think that they value the mere fact that you thought of them?
[If you ever feel like this about me, though, something very big is in order. I don't do well with subtlety. ;)]
Yep, it means the world to people to be told they mean something to someone else.
Now for my present, small will do fine, thanks. Small and sparkling ;-)
I notice that Terri studiously ignored the subject of PC Trolls (I think she's in on the conspiracy).
once again you've written something that could've come straight out of my own heart. and reminds me of my session last night. just amazing.
i love the little explorer's flag, there are a couple of those staked on my heart too.
Oh, the Trolls exist, KN... they're related to Gremlins. I already told LW I would help her if I could... hey wait, are u tryin 2 pull a guilt trip here??? I will not have it, I tell you!!!
Whoa, speaking of pms...
This was very nice. Few people take the time to show how much they appreciate their friends. I'm glad I had the chance to read this. Thanks for sharing it.
Those trolls are a real bitch.
I LOVE it when you don't plan on writing things and they just come spilling out....I've read some of the best writing from episodes like that!
"Everything you plan is shit, all the good things in your life happen by accident"
Lemmy(Motorhead)
Wise words.
I haven't commented on here for a while, and as it won't let me comment on some earlier posts, I'll say it here. Those points you put up about Quentin Tarantino, Paris Hilton, Reality T.V etc. I agree with you on all of them. That's not something that usually happens with me. Usually I disagree with someone at some point, but all of those are exactly my views as well. Cool!
It is always good to know that one is appreciated.
Telling someone that you care is the most important thing. The rest is just gravy!
Far be it from me to actually "refuse" the gravy, but I think you get the drift.
I'm sure that anybody speaking to you at length, either in person, online, in email or another method, would get to realise how genuine you are. It's a tribute to you that you take the time to pay tribute to others. It's one of those things that's always the third option of two for some people. Moan outloud and praise to self.
No, I'm certain, you have no worries on people seeing you for the person you are - they realise and should be feeling quite privileged at the fact.
Of course, we are now all wondering who they are and if we know them on here - I won't ask though, of course, as I can't spoil the wonderful thought and the way you've written it !
" being able to say that to another person overrides anything in a little package "
It does indeed. So just in case you're not sure.....
I value your friendship beyond words, beyond measure. It is a constant source of surprise, encouragement and laughter, yours of course being the far prettier laugh ;~). Somehow, it has slipped the bonds of time and taken on the appearance of something timeless, gifted us with one of the rarer gifts friendship has to offer; that of understanding, when we need it most yet hide that need more so. As Matty would say, "You see right through me.....".
Those who have been smart enough to tune in to this blog, they all stay because they recognise just what an incredible person you are. That razor-sharp wit is addictive!
They all see what I do, and if it were possible, that would be my gift to you. It is a vision of someone perfectly flawed, strong beyond her comprehension with a heart far bigger then she'd care to admit.
Love ya!
Anne - Yes, I think they do; just wanted to share something with them that I know they'll enjoy. Now as far as you go... Jeff Goldblum in a red bow...only?
Terri - How about the small sparkly parts of the inner workings of my PC when I smash it?! =) They do say homemade gifts are the best...
Kyknoord - I see; she sends them out to do her bidding then she collects the tech fees upon fixing said problems... very smart!
Rose - Then I'm glad to know that you have had the opportunity to have such wonderful people in your life as well. Explorer's flags are pretty great, eh?
Terri - Kyknoord is in cahoots with the gremlins, perhaps?...
Chicken Little - Sharing it was no problem. It just kind of came out unannounced; suppose it's been building. They deserve to know the impact they have.
Stacy - Yeah, and those little trolly bitches are coming back for round two {ding}! I just started typing and once I actually realized what I'd written, I knew it had to remain.
Motor - You know, I'd have to say that Lemmy is pretty much right on with that one! As for those other things, I think it's pretty cool that you agree. I must've just picked ones that I knew we'd agree on. =)
Chitty - Yep, gravy is pretty good stuff, but you have to have something for it to stick to. As you said, that is the most important thing. =)
Carpy - Thank you for such kind words, but I'm just me. I have no other way to be. I spoke from the heart and it was easy considering how I feel. Some might consider it a weakness to so openly say such things, but to me, it reinforces how important they are to me. How they have helped drop some of the walls I spent years putting up. When someone is that important to you, you'll find a way to let them know. As long as they know that the words are sincere and heartfelt, which I'm pretty sure they do. =)
Anonymous - Heh; why do your words sound so familiar to me?... Thank you for your honesty, it means the world. Knowing that I've given something back to you is a pretty special thing. Matty is rather wise, isn't he; such an appropriate line - I think we play off one another quite well in that respect. In a way, you have given that gift to me. Well, considering my ultimate stubborn streak, I do protest slightly less. Another 15 years and I might believe every word. =) And if you keep saying such nice things about me, people will come to expect that... sheesh! (Ok, no fair making me cry anymore!)
Sappho - You are right. It can be so easy to take things, or people, for granted instead of remembering to thank them for just being there. No matter what happens, some people will remain a part of you forever.
A good way to remind ourselves of the value of our friends. Yeah somethings are taken for granted through time while with a little thought it will be evident that those things are too valuable to ignore. Fantastic post.
Wow. That is awesome. It's been awhile since I've made a friend who moved me like that.
Dr O2 - And you are right; they are too valuable to ignore. I'm fortunate.
Goddess - Then my wish for you... a friend who makes you feel the same way.
Reading this made me realize how much I miss my friends that have moved so far away. That sounds wrong - they didn't move because of me or did they?? Now you have me all paranoid. Just kidding. Friends are special and one should never just accept that they will always be there for you. A small gesture of thanks always goes down well even though a true friend will never expect it.
Buddess - I'm sure they didn't move because of you, silly; and certainly they miss having you in their lives. I've learned that even when we think things can last forever, that can just be a trick of the eye. It's always nice to know you are important and I've learned to have the courage to let people know.
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