When you hear that phrase, you think of things just stopping. But they don't just stop immediately. One minute they aren't just moving about and then they come full halt in the next second. And even if they appear to, there is still movement measured in milliseconds between those two stages. Perhaps even nanoseconds.
On June 29th, my world stood still, but not before slowing at an increasingly dizzying speed. I held my grandmother as she died. How something can happen so quickly yet so slowly at the same time is beyond me.
Adrift.
5 comments:
Hello my dear, I'm late, as always. I was sad to hear of your loss, however at the same time I believe that this event marks the start of something else for you. I was very close to my mother and still can't believe that she's not around. Little things happen during the day and I'm still tempted to phone her and tell about it ... only to have to check myself and realise that I can't do that anymore. Love to you and hope you are doing well.
Carrot ~ That's ok. I haven't been keeping up with anything. I know you understand. Still in the stage where I open the fridge door and see 'her' food items and cry. Or pick up the mail, and cry. I've only watched the news twice since she's passed b/c it's something we used to do together and I'm just not ready. Things just went so bad so fast. You are right, this does start a new phase for me. Of course I'm still working out how to be 'me' without having to take care of someone or keep them in mind for every decision I make. Now, I have to learn what *I* want. Just me. New territory to be sure. Much love to you, and thank you for the kind words.
What you said here made me write something for you on my blog, it's too much to post here.
Carrot ~ I'm heading over now. =)
my dear, I've been gone too long and I am so sorry for your loss.
Its been a while, but I hope this finds you ok.
Breaking the Angel, aka Gingerl Doll, aka someone who sheds skins almost as much as bathing. x
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