Perhaps you aren't familiar with Michael Vincent but I suppose I'd have to say he and I are fairly close. Not to brag or anything; he emails me at least once a day if not more. And he knows things. Every day he emails me to say he's found me a new job. Huh. Without even asking, he just took it upon himself. How did he even know that I was considering it?? Creepy...
Ok, so I'm just referring to some irritating spam. But the thing is this: I am thisclose to taking him up on his offer. I'm to the point that I have to sedate myself again just to get through a shift. With that in mind, this job he claims to have had better be one found via divine intervention or if not, he'll want to seek protection. After all, I can find shit-ass jobs without anyone's help, thankyouverymuch.
I've been thinking about this. Yes, yes, I'm sure that comes as a shock. But when I boil it all down, there are just a few things core thing that are making me the poster child for How To Violently Self-Destruct in Three Easy Steps (dismembered action figure sold separately). Here they are in no special order. I'm being given too much responsibility without the tools I need to carry it out and coworkers that resist everything. It is a hostile environment with management that would rather not be bothered with anything less than a meeting with the CEO. Ok, so maybe just two main things, but they encompass alot.
I don't want to leave just to walk into something similar (I have a way of picking this scenario) but I'm not sure what to do or how to go about it. What do you think? Career change? Ideas? School? I'm just lost right now. I should know this answer but I don't. Unfortunately, I don't think Mr. Vincent does, either.
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I don't think it's you. I think it's the nature of the beast. Every job I've ever had (for the most part) has been the same.
School has helped me quite a bit to refocus on what it is I really want to do, what will make me most fulfilled. Once I'm doing that, the petty BS might not bother me.
Renee - Btw, I can't find your latest blog online and there is no email link on your profile page. Are you hiding from me? ;) I think you are right about putting the focus on yourself in a positive way and that may take up some slack from the normal BS. I am very interested in going back to school. I just want to know how so many people do the bare minimum and nothing seems to bother them. Ah, wait... they have people like US doing all the important stuff. I see now!
Two questions.
1. Can your situation be considered a challenge?
2. Is it the right hill to charge up?
If you answer yes to 1 or 2 then:
Take a deep breath, listen to your coworkers, divorce yourself from outcomes, and finally implement any idea of theirs that makes sense.
Else: Look at all possibilities.
peace
I'm a huge advocate for school, but then I'm also a big warning against, as I've become somewhat addicted to structured learning and have been studying something at uni on and off for ten years and am now thinking about a six year PhD. So not your best advisor!
Having said that, I have a nice work life balance in a job I chose to do (after many long days at the chicken factory).
What would you want to do if you went back to school? Would you want it to lead somewhere for work, or would you do it for pleasure? Can you afford it or could you get some kind of bursary? A good friend of mine from the states came to the UK because tuition at a good university was four times less than the states, even when the exchange rate was high.
But you need to do something. Even if you join an art class and paint stuffed animals for pleasure. Probably not much of a career, but hey! Who knows!
GD xx
Anonant - It a daily challenge to not slap them upside the head, not tell my boss to fuck off, explain to my coworkers that at work, they should actually WORK, and that an hour isn't actually a 'break'. There is no support from my boss and he wants more and more from me while others sit and drool or surf the net. Yeah, I'd say it is a challenge, lol. Unless my boss decides he actually wants to be bothered, nothing will change and I know that. I suppose it comes down to how long I want to lose sleep from sleepwalking, sleepeating, and rearranging items in my house. This is a horrible time to look for a job yet this is taking its toll on me. I don't want to wait until I've burned all bridges. Don't know - tough position.
Ginger Doll - Hmm. International schooling, cool. I would be happy as an eternal student of some sort. I love learning. I used to like my job. And I like it much more than the one before it, somehow it has become more frustrating. To the point that I fear my reaction when I'm there. I've been to school just because I enjoy it and also to change careers so either way is fine by me. I think I'd like to have a goal in mind so that I can enjoy it from that standpoint as well. I should be able to qualify for some sort of assistance but it is so tempting either way. Stuffed animals do make for some of the most compliant models! ;)
You're probably right, Mr Vincent doesn't have the answer. You do, deep down. What does your gut say? Also, sometimes we just need a break from it all; a mini vacation or hell a full on vacation. You'll be surprised what time away does to the mind. Heck, you could come back with your own Mr Vincent idea - I'd receive SPAM from you :-)
Gah! Just posted a comment and it's gone.
Just wanted to drop in and say hello, my long lost friend.
I'm attempting a return to blogland, we'll see how this goes. I'm psyched to see you're still here, we have much catching up to do!
Gino - True, Mr. Vincent may have been where I am just a few short months ago. I do think getting away from it all would work wonders. Wow - can you only imagine what SPAM from me would be like?!?! ;)
Eggy!!!! - I was thinking of you very recently (try about three days ago!) and here you are! I'm shocked (happily) to see you. Hopefully I can hop over to your blog and catch up. Be warned, I'm just as erratic as before.
B, my old friend, I would expect nothing less!
I'm just getting back into blogland, and I feel like I need it. Much editing to do the the ol' blog, but in due time.
I'm so happy to see you here. Our blog (and subsequently otherwise) conversations and friendship meant so much to me then and now. We connected on a higher plane, and it gives me great joy to know you're still around.
So much has changed on my end, but much has stayed the same. I'm still me!
Can't wait to catch up, my genuine blogland friend. Let's chat soon (if I don't quickly reply to something, just wait--life is crazy right now and my work responsibilities may delay me, but I promise to stay connected).
By the way, in case you didn't see yet, I'm married now with children--two cats and a dog (no babies yet)--but it doesn't mean I don't still love my old friends, you especially. Let's chat soon!!!
Eggy - I'm sure it'll take a bit of time to reform ye olde blogge but it will come in time. If you treat it as more of a project then it won't be such a chore. ;) Typically when your brain tells you it's time to start posting, it is something to listen to you; very good for both the head and soul. I did check back for the longest time for updates from you but I know you had alot going on and hadn't seen anything for quite a long time. Of course thats when I thought Eggy had flown the coop! (?!?!) Sounds to me like you have many changes and I'm sure I'll have 80 questions on each of them. I'm wondering if the girl you started dating then is the ... well, I guess I'll have to get the scoop from you! Congrats to you!! Two cats and a dog, eh? Inter-species children? Awesome! Same goes for me re: responses. It's hectic because I'm often acting out my anger somewhere. ;) My email should still be listed on my profile page if you are so inclined. Promise to get over and check out your new post(s). I'm glad you took a chance to see if I was still around. That really made my day; looking forward to catching up!
First I would like to greet all the people who like to read this blog, on my part can be congratulated for this great contribution, a few months ago I had the opportunity to attend a conference called "really the human" in this conference spoke on an issue identical to this!
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