Twisted Transistor

Within the last week I've been sick in three different manners; my system has been thrown for a loop from stress, most likely. I've had to explain to grown men at work how to piss IN the toilet... not ON it. I got the promotion. My coworker is skating on thin ice because of psychotic outbursts and serious antisocial behavior (impeding her work) and may not be there much longer if it continues. As I said to someone a few days back, this promo may be akin to being elevated to first mate on the Titanic. In addition, serious discussions are in the works about how much longer Benny will be among the living. When I imagine holding life and death in my hands, it is typically that of some human idiot, not a feline one. Additionally, I'm in the process of severing more ties and have nothing yet to replace them. Yay, emptiness and more time to brood. All of these things leave LiVEwiRe in a bit of a tense state of mind. In a way, it's good... it's putting up the buffer again. I'm swinging between being sweet natured with some and drilling the 'don't even think of fucking with me or I'll rip off your arm and beat you with it' look into others. This buffer is called self preservation. It has served me well in the past. Not associated, when I get my hair cut in a couple of weeks, it's going mostly black. There will still be red, but to be honest, if I had the money, I'd get extensions and have almost a red/black striped effect. No such luck; no funding. But it would work better for my headbanging. So, back to the point of this... self preservation. I'm getting a bit of an icy shell because I'm getting pissed at the idiocy I'm encountering everywhere; but it kind of numbs me to it to an extent...

Which brings me to something I wanted to link you to. I'm putting lyrics (of course) and noting the ones that seem to speak to me the most at this moment. I'm giving you a link to visit the band Korn's site.... GO TO IT! This is one of the most visually cunning sites I've seen in quite a while but you have to navigate the site to get it to move... so try it! If you are inclined to watch a funny video spoof, check out their video to this song... none of the 'real' band members are performing in it and it has a lovely cameo by Snoop Dogg. I laughed; alot. The audio for this song is on there as well - it's good to listen to it to put it in context and add a sense of feeling to the lyrics. This song is sort of how I'm being pushed to feel at the moment. Eh, give me another few days and it may change - you know how I am.

"Twisted Transistor"
(Korn)

Hey you, hey you, Devil's little sister
Listening to your Twisted Transistor
Hold it between your legs
Turn it up, turn it up
The wind is coming through
Can't get enough

A lonely life, where no one understands you
But don't give up, because the music do
Music do [x6]

Because the music do
And then it's reaching
Inside you forever preaching
Fuck you too
Your scream's a whisper
Hang on you
Twisted Transistor

Hey you, hey you, finally you get it
The world ain't fair, eat you if you let it
And as your tears fall on
Your breast, your dress
Vibrations coming through
You're in a mess

A lonely life, where no one understands you
But don't give up, because the music do
Music do [x6]

Because the music do
And then it's reaching
Inside you forever preaching
Fuck you too
Your scream's a whisper
Hang on you
Twisted Transistor
Music do [x4]

Hey you, hey you, this won't hurt a bit
This won't hurt a bit, this won't hurt
Says who? Says who?
Anesthetize this bitch
Anesthetize this bitch, anesthetize!
Just let me be
Between you and me don't fit

Because the music do
And then it's reaching
Inside you forever preaching
Fuck you too
Your scream's a whisper
Hang on you
Twisted Transistor
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Ok, so go to the site... it's very cool. Even if you keep the sound off, it's worth the visit. Click around and see where it takes you.

Off to try to get some sleep now. Sleep should at least make me feel better physically as I can't get to a doctor until Friday. Yeah, good thing I'm not sick or anything. Other than that, all is well. Oh, and I just realized I've been blogging for a year... back to the start here.